as if my life was ever steady.

i wish things could be simple again. like when you were little and all you expected of people was that you could make a friend one day, never see them again, and never shed a tear for that.  not because you didnt care, but because you didnt expect a commitment. you could let them go.

now i seem to be losing so many people without even their ever belonging to me. I want so badly to just cling to them. to not let them go.

I suppose all i can do is to hold them closer to me while they are still here.  hold them, but not cling to them, dont let myself need them so badly that it will tear me apart to let them go.  just...hold them close, feel the warmth of their souls, hear their pulsebeat, taste their auras.

I want to keep them safe, and i will do everything in my power to shield them from any harm i can.

i love them.